Monday, August 25, 2003
HeLloOoo my fellow readers. I can see u still have love for sailor moon..She Rocks!!! In other news school was ok. We had some group convo, read and eat shit..Than after school i was chillin around and this gurl that tried out with me to be a canes dancer saw me and laughed in my face..I was like wtf..U see the story with that was that when i was trying out to be a canes dancer there was this gurl who didnt like me..Well we had try outs 4 like 4 weeks and i was doing really good..Than as luck has it i broke my finger and i couldnt try out anymore..I was so sad..Well it looks like that she made it to be a canes dancer...Ay that sux man..I wanted it so bad, why did i break my finger..w.e..Gots to go do homework..see ya..Muah*
Posted at 05:05 pm by SeXyNerd
Sunday, August 24, 2003
Heyyyy ppl..Bye Ppl..*muah*
Posted at 09:52 pm by SeXyNerd
Saturday, August 23, 2003
~*Sailor Moon*~
I LOVE THE THEME SONG!!
Sailor Moon - Sailor Moon Theme
Fighting evil by moonlight
Winning love by daylight
Never running from a real fight
She is the one named Sailor Moon
She will...never turn her back on a friend
She is...always there to defend
She is the one on whom we can depend
She is the one named Sailor...
...Sailor Venus
...Sailor Mercury
...Sailor Mars
...Sailor Jupiter
With secret powers
All so new to her
She is the one named Sailor Moon
Fighting evil by moonlight
Winning love by daylight
With her Sailor Scouts to help fight
She is the one named Sailor Moon
She is the one named Sailor Moon
She is the one...Sailor Moon
Posted at 08:59 pm by SeXyNerd
Friday, August 22, 2003
Hey..Today was such a good day..I went to school..I had so much fun..I met so many ppl..I picked up some lunch..Came home and called kevin..He wasnt home so i was thinking maybe he doesnt want to talk to me or he is out with some gurl..I really really really need help..I dont know what to do..I fill my head with all this crazy ideas about him..I think that he is out with gurls..That when he hangs up on me he goes and talks to someone else..That he just doesnt want me anymore..Like today he went to a dolphins game,,and u wunna know what i think..that he took some other gurl in my place and is having the time of his life..I dont know i cant help it..Thinking like this is killing me..I dont want to have bad thoughts about my boyfriend..I dont want him to think i dont trust him and im some kinda of crazy g/f that stalks him and shit..I dont want that fucking label..I dont want him to think of me like some lil gurl that is 8teen and is acting like she is 15...I want to trust my boyfriend!!! WHY CANT I??????..
Im sorry baby..Im so sorry..I dont want to be like this..Im so sorryy...
More on guys and gurls
Tonite some of Tati's friends came over and we had gurl talk and stuff and we were talking about how gurls make guys the center of there world and how much we depend on them and shit..and when there were saying that i was so thinking about me and kevin..like yea i love him and yea i want to spend the rest of my life with him..But am i to young to think like that? Or what.i dunno i have to manny questions and i dont know what to do..All i do is think..g2g..
Posted at 10:43 pm by SeXyNerd
Thursday, August 21, 2003
TRUST!!!! One word BIG Meaning..Why is it that i find it so hard to trust my boyfriend..Is it bcuz he has done little things here and there to make me lose that trust. Or is it that this is all in my head...Or is it that i sit there and i tell him over and over again not to do something and he does it anyway. Or is that in his little head he thinks that he is not doing something wrong but he is.. Bcuz now a days guys think that they never do nothing wrong..That they r aways right..That they dont mean what they do..Yda yda yda..i told him over and over again dont hide shit 4rm me bcuz imma find out..I find out everything..Im not guuna tell him nothing anymore..But u better believe that imma start ,how do i put it..Be more "friendly". More out going more nice..Best all around..I mean is it a crime to make new friends..Bcuz to him is ok..So if he is making new friends..Than y shouldnt i right..and thats all im gunna say.Ps. If u dont understand what i wrote is ok..It wasnt ment to be read by u anyway..
Anyhow on the rest of my day..I went to school..Bought some books. Came home ate..Talked on the phone..Imma go chill in mannys house in a lil while..Than come home around nine call my friend morning...Talk to her..Than talk to kevin..and i dunno go to bed..I got school tomm..How cool.Im so happy..Imma meet so many new ppl..Than this weekend some guy is gunna come to my house to sell some clothes 4 like $10..Guess..express..Tommy..amber..I was like str8....Plus im kinda low on money and i have 50 to spare..So what a good way to spend money and buy some clothes..I love shopping thank u very much..Well it looks is gunna rain again..Thats y i love and hate florida..yea there lots of sunshine and shit but it rains so freaking much..
Omg do u know who called me again today..My exex boyfriend..I was like ahh..w.e he wanted to chill and i told him that i was busy..wtf..
I also had a dream last nite that kevin had dumped me and was an asshole about it..Like he broke up with me bcuz this whole time that we were going out he had another gurl on the side...and he dumped me 4 her..and i was crying and stuff and he is like o0o maria get over it..Blah Blah..I was like watch mother fucker what goes around comes around..and i woke up..I wa so fucking and..i dont know y..I was about to pick up the phone and call him..but i didnt bcuz it was a dream..
My boyfriend tells me that way i write makes me sound mad..Is that true..Do i sound mad when i write..Tell me..i would like to know..Anyways..my blog is gunna look different real soon thanks to jenna..I think thats her name..she is gunna make my blog look very very nice..I was like yay!!
well guys i wrote alot..see ya im late 4 manny's..*MUAH*-
Posted at 08:20 pm by SeXyNerd
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
hEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY..Im so HapPYYYY..Mii Baby Made me feel good..Thats y i love him..Well today i went to the doctor to get mii new glasses..They r so Qtt..There black..I also cooked today..Yumm Pasta..very tasty..I also need to do my homepage..G2g..*Muahh**
Ps.Kevin u r the best.!!! (U know what i mean)
Posted at 07:44 pm by SeXyNerd
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
Lalal..Imma add music to Mi Blog..Well today was a chillin day..I went to work..Got home early..Talked to kevin..Got mad bcuz he only thinks about him and not others(Meaning me)..and..working on my homepage homeboy..lol..ok..nooo..Its coming out qt..heres the link..but u have to remember is not done yet..well i have been trying to sign on aim 4 the past 20 min and it doenst let me..Aim and aol r both a shit..w.e..im feeling a little better today..Thats good. I been taking my pills and what not..and tomm imma go to the doctor..4 my eyes..Well g2g..*muah*
Posted at 07:57 pm by SeXyNerd
Monday, August 18, 2003
Heyyy..well i clamed down alott.I just saw my fave show Sex in The City..I Love it!!i still havent talke to kevin.but w.e..he'll call or i'll call him..No problem..I also saw i love the 70's..Good show..I've been watching too much tv..Summer School is almost over and school starts.I better say my hell is gunna start..o0o man..Heres a song i love..is by stained:"So Far Away"
SO FAR AWAY
• Album: 14 Shades of Grey
• Track Number: 03
• Performed By: Staind
This is my life
It's not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping
Chorus
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
And now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
And I can forgive
And I'm not ashamed to be
The Person that I am today
These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doing okay
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping
Chorus (altered)
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
And now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive
And I'm not ashamed to be
The Person that I am today
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Chorus
Cool song eh..Well gunna talk to my pplz *Later*
Posted at 07:54 pm by SeXyNerd
I HATE KEVIN!!! IM SO MAD AT HIM..BRO UR TRUST IS GOING DOWN THE DRAIN..I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO..I QUESTION HIM ABOUT EVERY LIL THING HE DOES, AND HE DOES THE SAME TO ME..I DROPED LOTS OF MY GUY FRIENDS 4 HIM JUST TO MAKE HIM HAPPY..AND I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE..WHY I ACT LIKE THIS U MIGHT ASK..BCUZ HE HAS DONE STUFF IN THE PASS AND I DUNNO IF HE MIGHT DO IT TO ME AGAIN OR WHAT NOT...WE REALLY NEED SOME HELP..OR NOT WE R NOT GOING TO BE A WE ANYMORE...AND THE FUNNY PART IS THAT HE THINKS HE DIDNT DO NOTHING WRONG..WHY DO GUYS THINK THEY DO NOTHING WRONG..Y DO GUYS THINK THAT EVERYTHING THEY DO CANT BE ? BUT WHEN WE DO STUFF WE R HOES WE R THIS WE R THAT..I NEED TO CLAM DOWN..IMMA WRITE LATER
Posted at 03:24 pm by SeXyNerd
I dont feel good today..Im very anti social...I dont want to talk to no one see no one i just want to be by my self..Anyhow today was a w.e day in school..I turned in my paper did some work..Came home called kevin..Talked to him 4 like 2sec..Hung up and now im here..I guess im just gunna chill 4 the rest of the day..maybe im coming down with something..who knows..My boyfriend did a blog..And i read his 1st Entry and i was so sad..I new he felt like that bcuz he has aways told me..But he's words touched me so much..He did say a whole bunch of nice things about me that made me cry and shit.. But just the other stuff was like wtf am i doing to him..I would never want to hurt him..But it seems like i am without even trying..I really dont know what to do.Im going crazy..Im sad..I dont feel good..W.e Imma go lay down and think..Later*
Posted at 01:58 pm by SeXyNerd
